What If the extra weight just magically went away in one night?
That is what my nutritionist asked me today. What a question!
What would I notice first?
What really matters?
My first response was just to imagine the physical relief and lightness of losing this extra 60 or so pounds. I wouldn't feel the heaviness that weighs me down in body -mind- spirit. I might jump out of bed with energy rather that trip and stumble in to the bathroom. ( Ok, so maybe magic weight loss doesn't mean sudden grace and balance.)
Maybe I wouldn't feel the discomfort in my pelvic area or hips or back that I feel every morning when I get out of bed. My shoulders and elbows may not pop and crack as I move around. Maybe I would run my hand down a flatter abdomen and slip in to looser clothes. Hey, better than that, I'd go shopping for new clothes. Cute workout clothes. Then I'd go run a 5 K on the treadmill as I work towards improving my running time. My knees could handle it better back at that lower weight.
I'd have that feeling of pride that I'm healthier and more fit. I like the feeling that I'm a quasi athlete. And it's Fun, more fun when I'm not down and beating up on myself.
She made a good point. It's what I needed to hear.
It was a reminder to me of what I want, really want. See, I've been at that lower weight and felt all those things. I just had to remember what it felt like. I can do this. It isn't impossible.
2015 version: I'm still a geek for coffee, good chocolate, men, pjs, tiny house nation watching but realizing I'm too much of a semi-hoarder, movies, books, more books, cheesy magazines, and sleep. Also a former weight loss / weight related blogger who is in eating disorder treatment and learning to live a healthier , balanced life. Up to 2015 version: I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.