this is a whine post
Hey, I'm having a knee failure right now. Was it two zumbas and bowling and a weight training class with about a hundred squats in 1 week that did it? Maybe. Probably, yeah. That was the last time I could do any of that. But reality is, that I have bad knees after a lifetime of obesity. I also think being a softball catcher for a couple of seasons as a teen didn't help either since my knees were crunchy sounding even back then.
I've been visiting ortho docs and doing physical therapy intermittently for a few years. When I started exercising at 345 I rotated the cardio equipment I used, since it seemed like too much of one thing( bike , elliptical, walking) was detrimental. The last big flare I had was 2 Fall's ago and I had a round of steroid shots and physical therapy then. Those shots are so painful but it's like a magic elixir. I can get right back to doing whatever I want.. almost.
Except that you can only have so many steroid shots and I'm about out of space in my knees for injections. But then there is this new treatment they mentioned....and then you pretty much are on borrowed time until it's time for knee replacement. I may only have another steroid shot for each knee left and then I'm on to the other treatments. I'm trying to avoid the doctor route and treat it with everything I know from every other time I've had a flare up. I can go to water aerobics or just workout in the pool instead of the classes I like (but I don't wanna--whine). I can do my PT exercises (don't wanna...but will). I can rotate bike, walk , elliptical, weight train. (...sigh).
It depresses me. It's scary. It's time to get off my arse and walk the walk and talk the talk.
I WILL : do a little biking, , do a little physical therapy, do ellipitical , walk, heat and ice alternately my knees, Take my anti-inflammatories, Go to the pool. All of that range of motion is good for the knees. But I'm a little sunken down right now. I'll do what I 'don't wanna', so I CAN DO WHAT I WANNA.
Just wanted to pull my turtle head out of the shell and say what's going on. And by writing this and posting it to the universe I'm acknowledging all of this.
Sometimes it gets tough digging down deep, pulling yourself up and dusting yourself off and starting all over again.
Fall with pumpkinalooza and trick or treater candy around is not a time for me to be depressed....I'm maintaining my resolve..mostly. I'm just saying.
I love Linus and his belief and longing for the Great Pumpkin..gives me hope. all peanuts found somewhere on internets.
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