Working on being healthy in body , mind , spirit..135 lbs lost, then Maintained for a few years, and lately some regained. Working on it -in and out of Pjs
Friday, January 25, 2013
My WORD for the year. ?
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So many people have a 'WORD' for the year that is their Mantra or theme for what they want their year to be about. I am reluctant to do that . It seems to reek of New Years resolutions. For many, it seems their resolution is already (Jan 25th) a thing of the past. I don't do resolutions. I just always want to be the best, and most happy and healthy person I can be. a work in progress
I did have a WORD one year and my word was "Peace". At that time I was going through crazy food thoughts and restrictive dieting and alternating binge behaviors that drove my every waking and sleeping minute. (Oh, the food dreams!) I could only describe it as I imagined it-- an Angel on one shoulder and a Devil on the other . I had no peace. It was constant. Just read some of my early posts. Today, I have many moments and days of peace. More moments of peace around food than I did at that time. Less real binges. More peace about many things, though not every thing.
This was going to be a post about all of the stresses and burdens on my shoulders right now , but I decided to be a little reserved about that. I will say that I just started thinking about this WORD business. After today I would think my WORD is "Tested". I don't want it to be "Tested" but then that isn't my choice in these particular matters. I have other words. Words like "Strength" and "Hope" and "Wait". Mantras "I am strong" and "I am resilient" that pop up especially when I'm doing Yoga.
I sometimes say "Wait" when I finish eating a meal and want to get more or have dessert. But when I can remember to do this, I realize after a little time that I'm not hungry at all. I don't need it. I don't want it. This word goes out the window at times.
"Strength, Hope, Forgiveness, Let Go, Faith, Serenity," "Accept the things I can't Control" "Change the things I can" "Perseverance" pop in and out through out the day. They repeat in my head over and over.
Sometimes it is just a great void and there are no words. The exact opposite of those first words.
I'm sure this year may bring more WORDS. I would like to put out to the Universe and to God the following words that would be just fantastic to have in our life:
"Joy" "Happiness" "Love" "Employed and Happy Husband" and "Employed and happy wife" "Healthy" "Sharing" "More strength" "grace" "financial soundness" "Recovered" "Fun"
"Relaxed" "Purposeful" "Giving"
I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.