SWEET CLARITY

Clear as Mud- Tybee Island, Ga 2010


I admit to seeing a therapist because it really helps. SHHHhhhh....there is still something of a stigma attached to seeking mental health care. I see it and hear it all the time as I work in healthcare and have to encourage and promote access to mental health treatment.

Without it, I would go through life on autopilot. Not that this still doesn't happen when I'm working with a therapist. It's like my mental conversation is ..." blah blah blah blah-I want to do this..I want to do that. I'm trying to do this. I'm doing this. I'm gonna do that!"

Then , suddenly , WOMP!!!.

Something she says makes sense a week later and I do a complete 180 degree or 90 degree or 45 degree turn. What the heck have I been doing? No wonder I've been stuck. Sure, maybe I would have gotten there anyway, eventually, 30 years later.

Then there are the big questions: "What is your goal in life? What do you want out of life? What is your Life really about? "

scratches head and goes- Huh?


Seriously, I just stare blankly sometimes.

Flashes. Little flashes of clarity light up my brain on occasion.

The hard part is-keeping those lights lit and really doing something about it.