Working on being healthy in body , mind , spirit..135 lbs lost, then Maintained for a few years, and lately some regained. Working on it -in and out of Pjs
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Clear as Mud- Tybee Island, Ga 2010
I admit to seeing a therapist because it really helps. SHHHhhhh....there is still something of a stigma attached to seeking mental health care. I see it and hear it all the time as I work in healthcare and have to encourage and promote access to mental health treatment.
Without it, I would go through life on autopilot. Not that this still doesn't happen when I'm working with a therapist. It's like my mental conversation is ..." blah blah blah blah-I want to do this..I want to do that. I'm trying to do this. I'm doing this. I'm gonna do that!"
Then , suddenly , WOMP!!!.
Something she says makes sense a week later and I do a complete 180 degree or 90 degree or 45 degree turn. What the heck have I been doing? No wonder I've been stuck. Sure, maybe I would have gotten there anyway, eventually, 30 years later.
Then there are the big questions: "What is your goal in life? What do you want out of life? What is your Life really about? "
scratches head and goes- Huh?
Seriously, I just stare blankly sometimes.
Flashes. Little flashes of clarity light up my brain on occasion.
The hard part is-keeping those lights lit and really doing something about it.
I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.