We had a church picnic tonight- burgers and dogs and all the usual fixins. The food itself was classic picnic cookout stuff. No biggie. I had a small burger and just a plain dog and about 3 tortilla chips and a tablespoon each of baked beans and potatoe salad. There were no veggies (I knew I should have taken that, but we were late and took salsa and tortilla chips). We were late enough that the park's flies were in line ahead of us for the food, so I wasn't eating a lot.
Until we get to the other little table. This is where the drinks are and........the desserts. A bottle of water and I'm good. My challenge is there now. Homemade-from-scratch chocolate chip cookies. Argh. My kryptonite (that and raisin scones).
I enjoyed spending time talking with different people. I had several different conversations and enjoyed the company. But those damn , damn cookies. I would love to tell you I had none. Or just one or two. There were homeade cupcakes , store bought chocolate chip cookies and brownies. No biggie. Don't want those. But darn it , homemade chocolate chip cookies. Fail.
I've been skipping the big food related picnics for the last couple of years for a reason. Just avoiding that particular situation works best for me. Today, I even had pre-picnic, anxiety eating today prior to the picnic. Jitters. I wasn't hungry at all. I kept it healthy but it was unncessary-calorie-nervous intake. The first uncontrolled eating I've had in several weeks..bummer. It was a good streak.
I really want to be able to go to events and not get this way. I can think now of things I could have done -pre planning so that I didn't even consider going near that table. A review of my goals. Maybe even not going to the picnic at all once the anxiety eating happened. Focus on the situation, focus on the people. Believe me, that got me through most of the picnic. I know it could have been worse. I even wondered if anyone else was having the issues that I was having.
Fortunately, No picnic on the calendar for me this weekend. IF I grill out at home it'll be all good. Started over this minute.
Ohhhhh..I wrote that last nght . I'm feeling the sugar crap food hang over this morning.
ReplyDeleteWe have an annual neighborhood BBQ Friday. The food with be, well, excessive and tempting and very much off plan. I really don't want to eat it. I think I'll go later and eat at home first and come up with some excuse for why I'm not partaking. Because I think I'd do better to just avoid the food tables period!
ReplyDeletesounds like a plan...that's what I would do
ReplyDeleteYep. I go from giving up and partaking, to trying to make good choices, to my current MO--avoidance. Either don't go, or go and bring my own food and don't even look at the tables.
ReplyDeleteYes, I would like to go someday and just 'be normal.' Not sure that's gonna happen.
PJ, I can assure you that you were NOT the only person there struggling. I go to potlucks and am soooo darn "good" with my food choices, but there will be SOMETHING there that has a siren call and won't shut up. Instead of staying far away, I heed the call, just far enough to look and admire and tell myself No. But I keep passing by... and sure enough, I fall. Again and again. And again.
ReplyDeleteWe had a spate of potluck events recently. I took brownies. My homemade (mom's recipe) fudgy brownies. They are the best ones I've ever had (why am I telling you this?) -- and I am capable of inhaling them.
Sometimes I think that "normal" is us, and abnormal are people like my husband, who is a naturally thin eater.
But then, I'm the one who hasn't lost any weight lately.