Working on being healthy in body , mind , spirit..135 lbs lost, then Maintained for a few years, and lately some regained. Working on it -in and out of Pjs
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
there's a reason I don't do picnics
We had a church picnic tonight- burgers and dogs and all the usual fixins. The food itself was classic picnic cookout stuff. No biggie. I had a small burger and just a plain dog and about 3 tortilla chips and a tablespoon each of baked beans and potatoe salad. There were no veggies (I knew I should have taken that, but we were late and took salsa and tortilla chips). We were late enough that the park's flies were in line ahead of us for the food, so I wasn't eating a lot.
Until we get to the other little table. This is where the drinks are and........the desserts. A bottle of water and I'm good. My challenge is there now. Homemade-from-scratch chocolate chip cookies. Argh. My kryptonite (that and raisin scones).
I enjoyed spending time talking with different people. I had several different conversations and enjoyed the company. But those damn , damn cookies. I would love to tell you I had none. Or just one or two. There were homeade cupcakes , store bought chocolate chip cookies and brownies. No biggie. Don't want those. But darn it , homemade chocolate chip cookies. Fail.
I've been skipping the big food related picnics for the last couple of years for a reason. Just avoiding that particular situation works best for me. Today, I even had pre-picnic, anxiety eating today prior to the picnic. Jitters. I wasn't hungry at all. I kept it healthy but it was unncessary-calorie-nervous intake. The first uncontrolled eating I've had in several weeks..bummer. It was a good streak.
I really want to be able to go to events and not get this way. I can think now of things I could have done -pre planning so that I didn't even consider going near that table. A review of my goals. Maybe even not going to the picnic at all once the anxiety eating happened. Focus on the situation, focus on the people. Believe me, that got me through most of the picnic. I know it could have been worse. I even wondered if anyone else was having the issues that I was having.
Fortunately, No picnic on the calendar for me this weekend. IF I grill out at home it'll be all good. Started over this minute.
I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.