Back on Track: Getting Prodded In The Right Direction

After a deviation from my previously scheduled program of becoming a better steward of my life and my health, I am back on track. One day at a time.

I still think an erase button or a reset button would be good. We need an algorithm written that quickly resets us when we get off course.

In my case, the problem was this:

Anxiety and a Bad dream--more fear and anxiety --faith shaken----comfort , numbing, anesthesia, comfort from all the wrong places---lack of hope and depths of despair--until eventually I get tired of sitting in the muck on the bottom of the pond and come up for air to survey the damage and shake off the bad ju ju.

Here's what I need:

Bad Dream--"oh I'm scared and anxious"....deal with it but if all else fails,hit the reset button--back to taking care of myself in the right way.

Meanwhile, God and the Universe kept prodding me along.

Tuesday in the mail came my labs from my recent MD appointment. Still all good. And a leather bound journal from OPRAH with this message -

"We all want to make the most of our lives..to become the highest expressions of ourselves. It begins with your own awakening. There's no better way to find that aha! than by keeping a diary..."

(I think some time last fall I signed up to win a chance on one of her lifeclass shows and this was meant to come to me then.)

Wednesday- I find my mother's obituary on Ancestry dot com. I couldn't remember if her birthday was 01/18 or 01/19. Probably 01/18 since all I wanted to eat all day was breakfast food and that was her favorite meal. I found the obit of a friend who had passed at 38 years old at a time when we had not been on speaking terms. I felt inspired to "Live, dammit. for both of us".

Thursday --I open a package that came Wednesday from my employer-a wellness calendar with pretty pictures, with handy tips and motivational sayings. January-Take better care of you this year.

Got it!