Vacay Day 1 --just rambling

I was up at 5:05 am to watch the wedding....in pjs under a blanket as it was 49 degrees.....lot's of coffee. I drifted off to sleep more than a couple of times. But it was great to see a fantasy wedding and young love and Diana peeking out in William's smile. And I hooted and shouted "oh no!" when it looked like the ring wasn't going on.

However, I'm 'purty tired' today. I'd had iced coffee while I finished up work the night before around midnight...Big Coffee / caffeine mistake ..but it was so good. I'd left work early yesterday (by 15 minutes) for a therapy session and then gotten some good cardio in at the gym. That is the good, bad , and ugly of working at home..it's always there waiting for you.

By the time I went to bed, I was wound tight thinking about the tornado devastation in Alabama, worrying about this or that, replaying the last song (Adele's 'Rumor has it') I heard over and over in my head. So I really didn't sleep much last night/early this morning?

And by mid morning , they were wed and had kissed twice and were probably sipping champagne . I was in bed asleep with a dog at my hip and a cat sleeping on my chest and a blanket over my head. Best way to sleep.


I've got big plans for today, and I'm getting off the computer to carry them out....
Between the reality shows I'm sucked in to..I watch " The Judds, Ruby, Addicted to Food, Bethany Ever After, Biggest Loser"..and somehow I read a lot and exercise a lot too....I can't keep up. But I enjoy it. I'm way behind and the reality is I 'm probably too far behind . But today, I've got a lot of tasks planned to do in front of the tv so I can get some of this tv backlog and life stuff backlog done.

My new dishwasher is finishing up a big load, I've relined some of the kitchen cabinets and I'm reorganizing my pans and cooking tools. I found my George Foreman grill and my mixer!!! Will start grilling up veggies again soon. Whip up some egg whites in to meringue? But today's task: Need to get laundry sorted and folded so I can wash more. Time to organize my med boxes--between the diabetes / bp/ antidepressants and supplements I take it's a a well worthy task. It's much easier to fill med boxes 2 wks at a time and then not worry about it. Gonna do my nails. Sort the mail. Make out lists: What to pack for Hilton Head, what healthy foods / treats to take to Hilton Head, what shoes/ which sandals / blah blah blah.....oh yeah, need to make hotel reservations. oh yeah, I don't have a swim suit. oh yeah. We leave on Monday .... Oh...yeah.


Later today I commit to you all that I'm heading to the gym for Pump class and Zumba -a 2 hour extravaganza of exercise and then home for a dog walk. I want to do it. I'll enjoy it. I feel so good about myself after I exercise. I'll sleep great. And, I need to do it as I ate a little extra carb today--my own little extra wedding reception. My inner food addict wanted wedding cake--thinking about it for weeks...whining about it. No wedding cake bought / not a good idea/ Not able to keep certain things in the house.

For me , never having those things again created rebound binges ( past tense). Measured doses work for me...keeping the doses measured and in honest perspective is the struggle.... But with the knowledge of that 2 hour workout, a little pre planned and thoroughly discussed carby sugar treat was enjoyed. All gone now. Not on any plan..I know. The retained fluid and extra pounds from Easter Sunday are dropping away and it will be ok from a weight perspective.

As with many days, I've already learned a lesson today. I'm praying and trying not to be too 'scattered , smothered , and covered' . Keep others that are hurting in your hearts and prayers. There are so many who need it. I enjoyed the little fantasy wedding this morning and I'll enjoy my time off, but with my heart and mind full.

Tornadoes Too Close To Home

If you have watched the news at all, you'll know that Tornadoes are wrecking the South and many of the lives in the South.

This latest SOB stormed through Tuscaloosa, Alabama and destroyed part of the town I know well. I went to college in Tuscaloosa, my sister and nephews and nieces live there, my mother lived there for a while, and I've visited Tuscaloosa many times a year since I was a small child. It feels like my home was torn up.

My sister's business was destroyed, whole neighborhoods and streets that I knew well are either gone or flattened. As my sister told me I couldn't believe it. The CVS where I bought water and almonds once, The Mcdonalds and Taco Casa just down the street from my sister's business. The Krispy Kreme where I played scrabble with a friend at midnight once. The neighborhoods near the hospital. ......Gone. So sad.

And last night these tornadoes wound their way towards Georgia. Finally, at some point, I packed up a bag of items and the one dog I could find and moved in to the walk in closet as it stormed and Tornadoes headed our way. My husband manned the TV to keep abreast of the path. Our other dog was hiding under the bed and the cat probably just slept on the sofa as usual.

It's funny when you are packing up what to take in a closet with you that may be all you walk out of your home with if the tornado hits your home. All I really cared about is my husband and my animals. At about 1:30 am we were in the clear and I got in to bed.

What did I pack? My purse, cell phone, car keys, a bottle of water, my meds, a canister of almonds, my Kindle, a pair of shoes.

Prayers for everyone affected by the storms, please. They are in search and rescue mode in Tuscaloosa still.

GRRRAtitude!...and a little ol wedding to attend

First, I have to say I will be attending the Royal Wedding!


...In my pjs with a few cups of coffee and something on my meal plans for breakfast on Friday morning since I'm off--day 1 of vacation. Ok, maybe I'll have tea and a healthy crumpet too. I'm kinda looking forward to it. It's supposed to be on starting at 4 am to about noon on NBC. In college, I worked at the college movie theater and we put on a Charles and Diana viewing party and served cake and punch for hundreds. Fun.
LAH de DAH!
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Gratitude, oh yeah

Nothing like a little kick ass workout and endorphin rush to make ya feel better and realize you have a lot to be grateful for. dog walk, super intense elliptical work out and then pump class last night. RARRHWH!

I finally combined the right histamine with advil congestion relief to kick the sinus migrane I've had for a couple of weeks and to feel good enough to really push it hard at the gym for a change. I haven't run since the race because of this thing. This sinus migrane thing, nausea, joint pain, chills thing started before my race about 2 weeks ago and coincided with a little wig out session with a lapse in to sugar .

Now I'm paying the piper. And it's ok. I've been here before. It seems like a big looming hurdle to jump. But I'm doing it. Getting food and exercise back in to shape...got to vacation is coming.

So I got some Gratitude to talk about:

Claritin and Advil Congestion Relief--not sure you are supposed to combine but my nurse sense thinks it might be ok ..so did it and felt better. Check with your own doctor.




The New Duran Duran Album..I'm stuck in the 80's in many ways but I also listen to the latest music ..I mean the stuff that "the kids" listen to..My taste are not like that of many 48 yr olds. But Duran Duran is still kicking and their new album is great fun to dance / exercise to. I remember listening and dancing to them when I was 18...and U2, and the Police, and the B52s, and Rem.....

New Elom Workout Bra...Size 38 G...must blog about my professional bra fitting soon. Guarnteed no bounce but it's like putting on a corset from the 19th century. Shove this that way, point the nipple this way, squeegee this that way. No bounce.

God-my higher power, trusting father, big-know-it-all who is personal and points me in the right direction. Don't get the disaster , tragedy part of things...never have. But when I get little secret synchronicity messages daily that tells me a higher power is involved..and has a sense of humor. ya just have to nod, shut up , and listen.

Ok, there are about a hundred other things..that's all for now though. Time to put the coffee on.

What are you grateful for?

Water For Elephants : and other stuff

Didn't read the book but shoulda. Probably will add it to my Kindle and read on vacation. Yep, Vacation is looming. We leave on Monday -our wedding anniversary-due to a dog sitting issue--my babies must be cared for. Don't quite have a destination locked in yet. Maybe Hilton Head, Sc.
OY!


Saw the movie. Wow. Heart string plucking. Crying, laughing, gnashing of teeth, clapping loudly (i was the first one ) when the bad guy gets beat on, just a great experience. Best actors and Best film nominations are deserved and expected.

AND I REALLY GET THE OBSESSION THAT GIRLS HAVE OVER THIS GUY-ROBERT PATTINSON.


OTHER STUFF
Still processing the new body image-clothes wearing stuff. confused. wigged out a bit last weekend and food is still not where it should be. Other things too but processing that as well. Work is a bugaboo. Lots of aches and complaints in my body because I've eaten some sugar ....and it does not agree with me.

Back on track -minute by minute. Following challenge menus and following to the letter because I know I will Feel Better Physically by eating the essentials and letting structure mold my days and getting back to my exercise routine. Lots of emotion and personal stuff that just doesn't get worked out with food...journaling, meditating, prayer, patience, talk-yes.

Gotta get straightened out and this will do it.

Tea Wisdom

(internet google image of tea cup by Gayle Etcheverry)

Wisdom comes in Many Forms. But do we notice?

Tuesday, I had a cup of Yogi Lemon throat soother tea..Mmmmmm.

A glance at the tag on the tea bag.

Life is a Gift. If you do not value your gift, nobody else will.

I taped it to my computer monitor.
I glance at it occasionally.
I've been thinking about it all week.
Especially, this week. This Easter weekend.



The Cup of Tea by Mary Cassatt

Back To Our Regularly Scheduled Programming.......

Good to be back, folks. Comcast DSL went kaput in our neighborhood for most of this week and we finally got it back up and running today. Yes, there is wifi out there at places like Mcdonalds and Starbucks, but that would mean having to take my laptop and plug in and hope it works. This has been a bad week from a work and health perspective..plus I couldn't venture out any where near the Easter candies that abound out there.

In last week's episode, Pj geek was preparing to run , actually run, a 3K ( 1.8 miles) and be the volunteer standby nurse for the full 5K race. Well, I was very sick all Friday and wasn't sure I'd actually be able to run. Also, the area was racked with thunderstorms and wind. Hmmmmm, dicey.

Saturday was cool and beautiful and I ran that gosh darn race. I mean I ran it almost 95% of the time and only walked up a few of the hills. Even the veteran 5K runners were sighing and moaning and commenting about the hills.

Well, I WON the 3K!
(I was the only one running and not walking the 3K).
Time 29:49 minutes.

I nearly threw up at the end....yeah!
My husband rode his bike alongside me to motivate me (that means fuss and yell AND encourage) and carry my phone so I could be reached as the nurse on call. I had to grab a small child in the parking lot before the race to program my cell phone ringer--tech savvy , I am not. Plus, I had my mp3 player loaded with all my running and speed motivating music but forgot to charge it up. epic fail on that one.

But in the end I did it. I actually posed for photos and will share them here. Face/privacy protected --it's a work / privacy thing. My XL race t shirt is too big ( no clue I shoulda got a Large) and I had on my too big shorts but this is me. 135lbs less of me than a few years ago when I was afraid to walk too far from the house because of fatigue.


Next on tap is a 5k . I've been sick all week with sinus problems, but will start training again soon.

Lot's more going on this last week, some good..some bad..some very chocolate/ bad.

Back on track again now.

Will Run For Food

Last years race T shirt--I walked the 3 K then and could barely do that.

Will Run For Food.Embarrassing, but that is the catch phrase for a little charity 5k / 3k race that I'm RUNNING in on Saturday. But it's to support a local food bank that my church helps support, and this food bank serves thousands of hungry people in our county. I've got mixed feelings.

When I had a summer off between jobs a few years ago I volunteered there frequently by sorting food and packing food boxes and filling orders. It is a sobering thing to have people come to you and tell you they are hungry right then and could they snack on something while you fill their box. Then to see their eyes light up at new toothbrushes, diapers, bread, and baked beans. I would find myself wanting to hand out more than I was supposed to dispense, but then to realize that giving extra to this family might mean none for the next. It usually sent me to the nearest Krogers shopping in order to donate more. I'm now able to donate through work with deductions from my paycheck and matching funds from work.

So , worthy cause --YES.

Back to the race, I think I might be the nurse on call for the race as well and this is my first Run / walk race, so I've decided to do the 3 K. I walked it last year and it was a chore then, but then I was 20 lbs heavier. It's a hilly course and we are due for storms and rain. I can actually do a 3K in around 30 minutes. 5K takes me closer to an hour. Lost 135 pounds but still have the knees and feet and flab of someone who carried that extra 135 pounds in to several decades. Not to mention, the short fat legs and a tendency towards the clumsy.

In other words..slooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwww as molasses. But, I'm doing it by Gosh!

This week I doubled the length of my longest running time and distance. I increased my speed . And yet, I'm kinda 'skeered'. Maybe , I might could do the 5K at 50 minutes but I got to get through this first. That's for another race.

I'm actually facing a little fear or anxiety around actually "Running" in public. Will I look stupid? Will I trip and fall? (has happened). Will anyone make Fat girl comments? They are not worthy if they do.

On the treadmill , you have handrails and can run flat flat flat and control your speed. On the street, you have .....pollen, hills, sun , rain, sky, water and electric utility signs (tripped over those) , pebbles, weather, dogs, poo, bugs, other people. Distractions.

But in a race , a charity race, you have purpose. Folks cheering you on and handing you water. Other folks sweating and huffing and puffing. T shirts. A welcoming reception at the finish line and a timer. And yea, Snacks at the end (food addict girl here).

I put off asking for sponsors until yesterday ...so I could get out of it?. I now have raised about $70.

I'm all in. It 's real. It's a done deal. Oy!

When Oprah Calls.................Addicted to Food.

So when Oprah calls or emails what do you do? I get emails from time to time wanting to offer me free ad space or asking if I'll shop some kitchenware or house ware or design stuff on my blog, etc, etc. I ignore them mostly because I'm lazy and don't want to clutter things up.

HOWEVER, IF ANY ELLIPTICAL COMPANY WANTS ME TO TRY-- FOR FREE-- THEIR ELLIPTICAL EQUIPMENT AND BLOG ABOUT IT, I'M YOUR GIRL.....and to a lesser degree-a PJ company.

But a recent email caught my attention and I want to respond. I got an email from an Oprah underling probably 25 times removed asking me to talk about the new show "Addicted to Food" which is on the Own network Tuesdays at 10 pm . ( good timing after "The Biggest Loser" on Nbc, methinks.)

I've already mentioned this show on my blog with intentions to watch it, so what the hey. The show focuses on Eating disorder rehab and the Shades of Hope Rehab in Texas run by Tennie who was also featured on "Ruby". I saw the first episode last week, but missed last night because I had to support my sister on a tearful phone call and then had to finish the %$#@!1& taxes. I have added this show in to my rotation of shows and bumped either "House" or "Deadliest Catch". Just Too much tv.

First, I love--just Lurve- spunky southern women with a no-nonsense attitude. Tennie is all that and more. Cute as a button driving around in her little Clubcar. Second, I've been through outpatient eating disorder treatment myself, and this show is spot on. This is how it really is. Uncomfortable , meals eaten under the direction of a food monitor and then discussed. Listening outside the bathrooms for purgers. Anorexics and 300 pounders mixed in. The ones that cry for no reason. The ones that clam up and don't talk. The sheltered life stuff. The inner child stuff. It's almost like this group is made up of the iconic eating disorder group members.

When I see more of the show I'll write more. For now, If you have an addiction to food , eat for emotional reasons, binge/ purge, restrict, exercise purge, whatever-- I would recommend you seek help. Don't waste time. Life is precious. If this show scares you, it is a little scary in this program. Unfortunately, many insurances or personal finances just can't cover this kind of rehab. I was too scared and insurance-poor to do inpatient treatment when I started getting help. Start with a counselor/therapist , consider Overeaters Anonymous, watch the show to see if it pushes your buttons, search the internet, read books, blog/read blogs.

There are amazing tools -all of the above- that can help with this cunning, baffling, widespread, difficult addiction. I think this show, rather than shows focused just on weight or prize challenges, can offer a reflective mirror to some . It might open up a dialogue with family, make you question yourself, scare the hell out of you, make you face your stuff, or make you dive in to a bag of Doritos . Whatever it does-that's something to pay attention to.

GET LIVING!

Had a moment--body image stuff

I had a moment in a dressing room at Kohls Saturday . I was trying on clothes just to see what size I wear and maybe If I wanted to spend a little coin. Earlier, I'd been pulling out clothes from my closet that were all too big and throwing them in a box to donate to Good will ( anything not to finish the taxes).

I have a hard time giving up clothes. It's not that I want them to grow back in to ...a little fat insurance policy?....not at all. It just feels like shedding a part of who I am to give up 'those pants I wore on the cruise', or that jacket I wore in Arizona circa 1994..or my favorite pink shirt (size 4x that swamps me .) So some winter things are getting packed away and I'll deal with them when it's cold again, probably to donate to Goodwill. Meanwhile, Lot's of stuff going to Goodwill as the reality is there are a lot of size 30/32's in my closest and drawers still....and why?.....

So back to Saturday, I was going to the gym but first to Kohls, and I was wearing my smallest and nicest pair of shorts that are now too big and will soon require a belt (which I don't have). A mental inventory of what I have that fits: 2 pairs of capris that are hand me downs from friends who have lost weight and that I now fit in to perfectly: one a size 18 jeans and another a size XL capris. Everything else in pants / shorts--too big. Lots of basic tops / J jill clothes, exercise clothes..only 1 new one in the right size..the rest-wearable but too big. Pjs-plenty..all too big but one set. My exercise pants from Old navy--getting loose. A pair of danskin tights--tight as I bought them a size too small. Oh, and those shorts that almost fell off while I ran on the treadmill, I guess it's time to give those up. That's it. Hunh..maybe I DO need to shop. I still want to lost 20 more lbs and then that's it , so I don't want to buy a lot. Maybe a new Easter outfit?

So at Kohls I tried on some 1 Xs and then just bit the bullet and tried on some XL tops and an XL Daisey Fuentes dress (NOT plus size) with a little pink cardigan. Hmmmm..retro. It probably was a little too fitted for me, but for some people it would have worked. It looked kind of smoking hot. I, who as a teen and an adult have always been in plus size clothes and never wanted to accentuate the GIRLS didn't know what to think. I didn't want the dress, I 'm extremely picky and it was the only one I wanted to try on just to try the look. But it made me realize that a new world was opening up for me. No more barriers to "regular" sizes. Soon I won't need "Womens" versus "Misses". Or the worst "chubby"....as a kid there was really a Sears Chubby dept. Embarrassing. Orange and blue and red crappy clothes.

Back at Kohls and wearing that dress in the dressing room. I nearly cried. I bowed my head. I took deep breaths. I had to stare at the floor for a good minute before I looked back up. I had to pray. While the numbers on the scale say 211 , the body is better shaped and I looked really girly and not in a matronly way. I looked like someone else. The thing is I gotta start recognizing is that I am chiseling this new me (and a little extra skin flab ) through the long walks I take, the pump classes, yoga, treadmill time, elliptical time, interval running, sweating, aches and pains, and Calorie counting and deprivation.

Obviously to me, the weight -the fat- was all a protective wall to keep away something and keep something of me good and safe. So this is big stuff to me. Recently, I went through a couple of weeks of wearing scarves to cover up my neck because I felt exposed with my now thin neck and shaped shoulders and collar bones. I 'm ok with that now. I'll get better with this. Don't know that I can ever wear cleavage like that ever, but who knows.

So , shopping purchases: couple of camis, a couple of shirts, and a skirt from Coldwater creek in an 18 petite for 5'2 me ( in other words , stops just at the knees versus ankle length like every other skirt I've ever had. I watch those TLC "What not to wear" shows.)

This weight loss / exercise thing has a pay off folks. I strive for some kind of ideal number on a scale which I have no idea what I'll look like then because I don't remember being that weight ever. But when I put on clothes that are the right size and actually show off my new shape , IT hits me. I don't know who that person is sometimes. Gotta love her and gotta get used to her, because I don't want to turn and run back in to a pint of icecream a day to layer on new walls of fat protection.

The Good, The Good, and The Good

Good: It's Friday. Though weekends bring less structure and more opportunity for me to get off track with food, It brings more time to be me. To sleep, read, go out, relax, watch movies, or stare at the squirrels and birds in the back yard if I want to.

Good: My husbands MRI is fine. The problem he has is a little weird but nothing to worry about ( still will a little--I'm me).

Good: I did a new exercise class last night...what a workout..old school step class. Burn the calories, shake the body up. That's how I roll.

Have a great weekend!!

wobble baby wobble baby wobble

Inevitable...I finally started the taxes. We always get refunds, it's just stressful. I hate taxes. I use Turbo tax ..it isn't that complicated, I just have a crisis of faith that I'm doing it right.

Lots of feelings yesterday. Food focused. Dinner was fish and it was stinkey and not tastey. I'm scared to even try salmon tonight although I know this salmon is good.

Don't know if the husband or the house can deal with fish stink 2 nights in a row.

The dogs and the cat would be happy.

On track.....no chocolate bunnies

On track again...

Yesterday was a little whine and cheese party without the actual cheese...plenty of whine. I don't get the number on the scale I think I deserve and it pisses me off. I know better. I know the bigger picture. But it's just the food addict missing the goodies and throwing a little temper tantrum and wanting to have WHAT I REALLY WANT. Not!...It's what the food addict wants.

It always helps me to validate reality when those food addict voices are thinking the chocolate chip muffin at DD would be a good 'reward' / 'revenge'? and I "think" it's 450 calories. Checked out the true calories and it's 630. Nutrition guides on the internet-Nothing works better to help me avoid going down the wrong path than to look up the calories. Equate that to exercise and think about how long it is going to take to reverse that. Hot fudge sundae at Sonic about 392. Those chocolate bunnies something like 280 calories. Tonight, I burned (if it is accurate) 350 calories run / walking a 5 k on the treadmill for about an hour. Dripping with sweat.

Today: Ate at or around 1200 calories and drank about 30 more ounces of water than plan. The scale may show no changes tomorrow, and I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't be disappointed. Not weighing but once a week, not weighing frequently would be the wise thing and is often what I do. But right now it's helping me to track how I feel and what I see and what I'm doing with what the scale says. And yet, I see all the other changes. My clothes are looser. My tummy is flatter. I now HAVE to wear control top underwear and 2 bras to exercise to reduce pain and flippy floppiness. My shorts felt like they were going to fall off tonight while I was running .

OK, This is the girl that was too scared / embarrassed to go to the Real Fancy Gym-coed. This was the girl that was scared to walk too far from the house in case I gave out. I guess, what I'm trying to convey here is this has been a big journey and overcoming fears and self doubt and pissy attitudes is as big a part of the challenge as the exercise and the diet. I just get on that treadmill and figure if people are behind me and snickering cause I'm still a big floppy girl than they can kiss my arse and get up here and do what I'm doing before they say anything............ Must keep this in mind when I feel embarrassed running 'in front of people- out there , in nature-during the 5k/...


Perfect-no. I screw up almost every day in some way. But progress.

Drinking a lot of extra water today cause I'm actually thirsty and if I'm hungry and if there is no food to eat yet..I drink water. The next 3 days of menus just happen to involve a lot of fish which I'm learning to like. Tuna salad, Grilled mahi mahi, Spicy roasted salmon. This is new territory.

I feel 180 degrees different today than I did yesterday. Thank God.
Just a little pat on my own back today. You gotta do that.

Rallying, Leap of faith or Suicide by bunny-( a little whine post)

Not having any.......Wanting...OH.. WANTING. ....... But not having.

Everytime I go to Krogers there are about a hundred of these gold bunnies lined up on parade by the front door. I turn my head away. I say no. I keep fighting. Actually, no big deal 99% of the time.

I practiced my 5 K yesterday. I ran hills. exercised for about 3 hours.

Today the scale wasn't budging. Up from earlier in the week with no explanation. Other than Aunt flo. I always have this struggle of getting pissed, saying 'what's the point? '.

Easy to chuck it all and dive in to a row of gold bunnies. Easy, but stupid.

Also, Dunkin Donuts whispered my name on a breeze -siren song.
Clap your hands on your ears when those sirens call.
I told my husband : "Dunkin donuts is making a whole lot a sense to me right now. Talk me out of it."
My husband : "what would you get?"
Me: " a big honking chocolate chip muffin, gobs of butter, and a large coffee with cream!"
Husband: "but that's not on your plan"
Me: "But if the plan isn't working, why follow it?"

Sigh. Rally.

Push down the urges. Push down voices and urges to comfort with food from my inner childhood (yep, those voices that got me to 345 )

Staying home. Leap of faith. Dig in heels. Another cup of coffee. Chug some water.
This too will pass. Darn it.

TMI TOM TUFF TGIF

Been busy -barely bloggin lately or even time to read or comment. On this cold spring morning, I went out in my pjs and took photos of my back yard because this is one of the first sunny days we've had in a while. If you click on the pictures they are much more interesting than how they show up here..point and shoot little fuji camera If I wait too long the azaleas will have bloomed, the bridle wreath flowers will have diminished, and the Hosta will be in full leaf.You've got to recognize the work in progress stuff. The beginnings and not just the full blown results. I guess that is where I am with my journey today.
Like little pink ballerinas waiting to dance


Hostas are interesting


Work is intense, home is intense-husband had MRI today and hopefully this will be the final thing that clears him from anything medically nasty. He's grumpy. But, So far so Good.

Food plan gets intense when I have to deal with cereal or granola. When you just don't have this stuff around and then it's there and you are emotionally a little needy it's just --one more thing to have to deal with ( This is probably the easiest thing to say). Calories at or below 1200 each day , fluid in , exercise done except only walks yesterday. Wt loss 1 lb since official weigh in day on Sunday. That was Tuesday. As of today, wt up a full 2 lbs. Aunt Flo really does cause water retention, I guess. She definitely makes me feel fragile emotionally.

I'm not good at linking stuff or attaching videos. This is the girl that blows up routers and things. But if you have not seen this and you are down or need a laugh, Please google and watch the video of the Twins talking to each other / twins language. It makes me happy and fills me with wonder. My husband and I have adapted some of the twin speak and hand gestures in to our special language that we communicate in ( accents and words of Cajun, Scottish, Nell speak, Pirate speak, Military, and now twin)..."DA DA , DA DA? hee hee"

Try to find the full video of the twins but here is a little something you can copy and paste from ABC
http://abcnews.go.com/Health/Wellness/twin-talk-video-babies-babble-adults/story?id=

Gratitude today : my flowers, new Crest tooth paste, that first sniff of a just opened bag of Coffee and feeling good about giving some other coffee I'd bought to a neighbor that was too intense for me..in her words " I love mud. There is No too intense coffee to me"