Control Issues?: Celebrity Dreams # 22- 23 and 1/2 and at the end Gratitude

Nathan Fillion from Castle and Firefly

I wanted to write a blog ,but didn't want to write a blog. So I wrote this one anyway....just because.

Weight is coming off. My neck and shoulders are getting pretty bony. My tummy and hips and thighs are the same -fleshy. 'Ok, body, balance this stuff out a bit.' ' The neck is as skinny as it needs to be.' Control issues?

Control issues, got em. I'm working on this a bit and it is popping up in a lot of areas but centers mostly around food. Will spare you the details and analysis just know that I get it. I'm more reactionary than usual and the control issues are a challenge.

***** must meditate ******

DREAMS

I've posted that I have very vivid and detailed dreams and have a multitude of repeating themes, places, situations as well, I also dream about celebrities and the characteres they play. No idea why. Just do.


For the most part, dreams of the last week particularly have been too personal to blog about and just damn awful. I'm writing them down in a different journal. Not "using" food seems to let the boogie men in to my dreams which makes me wake up and want to use food. Vicious cycle.

But I have had some weird celeb dream fragments mish mashed in there. So here goes. For amusements and weirdness.

Oprah Final Show. I dreamed I was at Oprah's final show and they were going to do a big give away like the favorite things give away. My fellow audience member's and I were getting excited and realized they were about take us into a nearby auditorium to give us t-shirts and start filming us get our gifts. Then Oprah shows up and throws a hissy fit..something wasn't perfect. So they cancelled the t-shirts and gifts and told us it was over . Bye bye.

Say What?!!!!!! Maybe I'm miffed about the Oprah show ending? But I barely watch it?



I dreamed about a haunted plantation during Civil War times and the Actor Nathan Fillion was a ghost/vampire character. I don't even watch anything this guy is or was in (Castle, Firefly) . This was much spookier than it sounds and the dream was about as detailed as an enclycopedia, so this is the mini-cliff note book cover one-line blurb version........... And there were weird decorations that looked like giant pieces of toast and whole grain bread the size of cars. ....just strange. spooked me out.

The 1/2-----I had a dream that I don't remember, but the actor Jesse Eisenberg that starred in the movie Social Networking was in it but just playing as a character. My dreaming editor brain part acknowledged..'hey, that is that actor from that Social Networking / Zombieland movies". But it was just him playing a character standing around in my dream. Liam Neeson (about a hundred different movies ) also appeared in another dream, but that was one of the bad ones.

Where did all those fun Johnny Depp dreams go? Or the good dreams with the cast of Mad Men ? Even that torrid romance dream I had with the Biggest Loser's Bob Harper would be better?

It's all about control. I guess.

***** Must Meditate more*****





Gratitude: Today, I am grateful I bought some Dunkin Donuts coffee On sale at Target to have when I wake up in 5 or 6 hours. I have clean pink pjs on. The weather is cooler for some reason. It's time for me to go to bed ..nite nite.