1 Year Blog Anniversary :' She's just fine'

Hey ya'll..Hard to believe 11/14/2009 I started this little shindig, overcoming shyness and fear of the unknown and fear of exposure and making a total fool of myself. .....well, can't say I didn't try.

Weight wise, probably up and down about 20 + lbs in that time period. More importantly, I've traveled farther on the journey and grown and had more days of a healthy approach to food and overall health than being stuck in food addict purgatory. Though I still visit there in that limbo land of feeling empty and numb and stuffed on food on occasion, I always hit the bottom of the pool and rocket back up in to health again. Currently doing pretty well. Not weighing as much to judge myself, I'll be able to know when I lose and meanwhile doing ok with food this week.


Heading to the gym today. Then dropping off at the Goodwill a box of books and knick knacks and the following which are all WAY to big:
Pjs/nightgowns 4 Tops Shirts 7
Pants 3 Jean Jacket 1
Dresses 3 Fleece Jacket 1
Skirts 3 Exercise pants 3
Shorts 2


Here's a bit of my first little blog back from 2009Hello blog world!
I'm a late bloomer to blogging and enter in to this with a little uncertainty and only a basic understanding of how to do this technically . So bear with me. I'm not the greatest writer. I don't really care for exact or correct grammar and punctuation. Sometimes, I'm positively naive and dingy. At other times , (I'm told) I'm fairly wise and offer a unique perspective . My goal with this blog is to have an outlet and to 'put myself out there' both for support and to broaden my life. I hope this blog offers something for anyone who actually reads it while it also bolsters and challenges me.

PJ's and Cocoa on the Porch ( the original name ) is very representative of me. I like a cozy approach to life--soft fleecy pajamas, fairy lights around the fireplace, a hot cup of tea or cocoa at my side, a dog in my lap, and either my nose in a book (laptop) or watching a British movie on tv. However, I work as a nurse with patients with catastrophic illness and injuries which means I help people at the worst times of their lives.

Let's see:
Food addict + Stuff from my past that made me an addict + Work/ Existential stress = hmmmmm, sounds like a recipe for weight gain.

So unfortunately, my cozy approach added on nearly an extra 200 lbs of fat. Having lost 100lbs over the last 2 years, I am more fit and healthy than ever, but still have a long way to go. My starting this blog as Autumn winds down and the holiday season picks up is no accident as this is a challenging time for me and I'm sure many others.

On a recent vacation to a cabin in the mountains, I swung in a hammock for the first time in my life. It was a revelation. I was always too big for most hammocks or at least that's what I thought about myself. Yeah, my butt sagged a bit, but at least I experienced it. That's how I want to go through life now. Free myself of old concepts, face my fears, try new things, spit out the bones if it doesn't fit for me.

Oh, and the porch. As a southern girl growing up in a small town we spent a lot of time on the porch just talking or staring ahead or day dreaming. Everyone drives by, some wave, and some stop by for a visit. So I'm on the porch and I'm letting almost all of myself hang out.