No guilt, just attitude...EFF IT !!!!!! .....

Cursing tonight, sorry. But that's how I feel!.

Do you ever just get tired of it? Fed up? Screw it! NEXT!

Well, Do You?

I can only take SO much sometimes.

--I've got this cooties rash on my body and I'm tired of itching and a new feeling--severe burning. doctors! creams, ointments, powders..$#!~!!!$@

Benedryl, sweet Benedryl. .......(Claritin non drowsy is such a wuss.)

--Work is too much-there was more work TO DO on my work task list when I signed off my computer than 1 person can do in a day and that's what I didn't get to for today . Tomorrow, it will replicate itself twofold.

--My Bistro MD shipment didn't come in , so I can't start it back up yet. I am so ready to get back on my nice safe little food plan. structure.
So screw you, Fed ex!

--I'm tired of planning and putting these little meals together that should be the right calorie amount and seeing that darn scale go up , up , up . Drinking a gallon of water. Scratch , scratch, itch itch. Not to mention Zumba withdrawal-Zumba classes cancelled at the gym for 2 wks. And now the cooties! ( maybe the inflammation is making me retain fluid, hmmm)

So just, Eff it!!!
Over it ..done..

I know food isn't the answer. I know what to do when I want to eat "on the fly".
Did I ask myself HALT? hungry? angry? lonely? or tired? YES, all of above
Did I ask myself "Was it tummy hungry" ? Yes , it growled .

Or "was it mouth hungry?".....sighs, stomps feet, crosses arms in disgust
Or "emotional hunger?"...No , THAT would be chocolate chip cookies



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Tonight I ate a really good meal. Not a diet meal. Not a binge. Just food I wouldn't normally eat because it wasn't food that would be beneficial to my weight loss journey.

No guilt, just attitude.

I ate a fried chicken breast, potato salad, stir fry veggies, and 2 small low fat blueberry muffins washed down with-
Nectar of the Gods--Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla Iced coffee / non fat milk.





Yum, deli-icious.
( Ok, there was a chocolate Vitatop after that too...maybe a bit overly carby of a meal )


Post-food-eating discovery questions:




Did it make you feel better? At the time it just tasted really good.
How do you feel now? full, not overly so, just satisfied
No, how do you feel in your body? er, full and not overly so, just satisfied
No, how do you really feel? um, cool..not itching as bad. kind of alright.

Any Regrets? I'm sure if I were to beat up on myself and weigh tomorrow and see the scale go up another pound ..sure I'd feel regret. But right now , I know that the food didn't make me feel better. It just tasted really good. It felt good to think in my head and say Eff it. It felt good to be a daredevil..(how sad, eating a fried chicken breast is daredevilishness).

Will you keep giving in to the food lover/ food addict? I didn't say I gave in . I said Eff it!...I did think about bacon and a biscuit for breakfast for about 1 minute.

But then I said eff that too!

(Claps hands, wipes palms on Pj top and says )...."Ok, that's over. Next"

It feels good to know that I am back on "my plan" as of the moment I decided to pick up my lap top, read a blog, write this post.

smile ya'll, ;)