Working on being healthy in body , mind , spirit..135 lbs lost, then Maintained for a few years, and lately some regained. Working on it -in and out of Pjs
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Mojo Risin'--like a baby butterfly
I HAD to use Mojo Risin' because I could hear that part of a song in my head over and over like a Mantra, but I didn't remember which song...click click click ..google.. L. A. Woman by the Doors.
Thanks for all your great comments and thoughts and well wishes. I have no doubt it is helping guide me back. Faking it. Acting as if. Remembering I have no other choice but to get it together. Decluttering. Well, just a teeny bit. Telling myself I don't have to restrict certain foods but then making the choice to have or not have something. Now I have to stand by that, even when talking with a nutritionist. This is my journey. Even though right now I'm about as sturdy as a new born butterfly. When I over-restrict it tips off the see saw which is what this little mojo crash was a tiny bit about. It's more about self-confidence and that is going to take time, stringing along good minute after good hour after good day.
I'm piecing it back together. Food wise, I'm following my Bistro MD plan and If I'm hungry I've had a little celery with the new chipotle flavored laughing cow cheese. Also, making fruit / yogurt protein smoothies with my new Blender Bottle to replace the desire for treats or eating a Vita top here or there. An intense workout at the gym was a self esteem builder in itself. But today, I've been sleepy and tired all day , so a walk in the morning and a short walk in the evening until lightning drove me inside.
Reading a few blog archives (my own included) and Loretta's "Comfort Zone " doodle have helped big time. Thinking about my own journey out of my comfort zone has helped. I can't wait to spend some 'me time' coloring her doodle this weekend which should probably boost up my self confidence.
Just wanted to give a little progress report. I've put off stepping on the scale, but will do so tomorrow. Thursday is my official weigh day, and I haven't weighed in over a week. May not be pretty , but need to be ok with that. I'm in a place where I'm not beating up on myself no matter what it says. It's just a tool, it's not everything.
(I realize that complete sentences, proper grammar, etc are non existent in this blog, but probably particularly in this post....apologies)
I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.