Working on being healthy in body , mind , spirit..135 lbs lost, then Maintained for a few years, and lately some regained. Working on it -in and out of Pjs
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Wow, I have been hungry today . Actually, I've been more physically hungry the last few days.I think If I remember correctly, when I'm hungry like this I'm losing weight. It's been a while since I saw consistent #'s dropping. Sizes yes. Pounds on the scale..no.
I mean actually physically hungry -stomach growling hungry versus mentally hungry (jonesin on those Dunkin Donut muffins) or mouth hungry "gotta crunch on something salty"..or just my usual little girl saying " ooh, it's almost time when I can eat again, right?" Hunger is unusual for this recovering food addict. I assess my hunger before and after meals (when I'm following my program well) and it helps me reason out if I'm eating out of body hunger or for habit or for a desire for comfort or for boredom. (HALT -hungry ,angry , lonely, tired) Right now , on the scale above I am close to ravenous.
Back to this gnawing hunger, Part of me freaks out. There's the diabetic part that worries about 'Am I going to drop my sugar too low?' Then there's the part that knows that I probably will need to go with the hunger in order to lose weight. Then there's that part of me that's like..I gotta eat. My enabling self thinks 'oh, you can eat every 3 hours and burn more calories, so just find a good protein snack"....ARGHHHHHH!
Seriously, it's so unusual to be hungry that I don't know how to handle it. My nutritionist tells me that I need to create a calorie deficit, I need to be ok with being hungry some of the time. I don't have to panic. I can just sit with the hunger...blah blah blah
I did that the other night and went to bed with my stomach growling. I woke up to let the cat out at 3 am (he get's bored and comes in and wakes me up) and I realize I'm feeling sick and nauseated because I'm so hungry even though it's 3 am . So I ate some fruit and went to sleep.
I'm physically hungry . It's 10pm . I've got an early day tomorrow. I'm going to make a cup of sleepy time tea and after that if I'm still really hungry. I'll eat some cheese. There. Taking care of me.
I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.