Working on being healthy in body , mind , spirit..135 lbs lost, then Maintained for a few years, and lately some regained. Working on it -in and out of Pjs
Thursday, December 10, 2009
dealing with a crisis without bingeing on food
I'm adjusting to the idea and working through the feelings. Essentially my job is about to change. I work in a health care organization as a nurse. (the company I work for is very specific that personal blog info could be considered a direct reflection of the company which is why my blog does not identify me and is somewhat less personal because I occasionally do want to be able to journal here about things that affect me related to my job).
I'm thankful I'll have a job. I'll have the same boss and team and salary. My job is somewhat specialized and one that I truly enjoy doing but now has to go to someone less qualified and experienced for a lot of different reasons that have nothing to do with me. Health care reform and labor boards have reached it's tendrils again in to my life.
I can weigh the good and the bad. I won't have to deal with this issue or that anymore. I won't get as totally depressed or haunted by my patient's conditions--I've followed some patients for as long as 2 years. I won't feel as responsible for a person's life. I'll have no change in status within my company, but I know that I'll feel a little less than. Things will be very rough for a while during and after the transition and I'm trying not to feel just a little good about that. I will take the high and right road and make this as smooth and successful a transition as it could be.
I woke up the night before last at 3 am and couldn't sleep. I got up and made my healthier version of Chex mix and indulged in more than I wished I had. I adjusted my intake yesterday and did the best I could to counterbalance those carbs. I wrote on the bag of chex mix " If you can't handle it -Trash it". It is sooo tempting. This is the only time of the year I make it, and it reminds me of my sister that passed away who made it every Christmas.
Thursdays I weight myself and today 237. I was 234 to 235 last week and thought I'd be the same or less because I've had some hard workouts lately . But realistically, I also had more carbs this week and last weekend. I'll try not to get too bummed or give up. I could easily lose 2 lbs overnight , I'm really bad at retaining water after carbs and sodium . My goal for the rest of 2009 was just to get to 229 and then to maintain the rest of the year . I'm considering either not weighing any more this year or being ok with maintaining in the 230's. That would still take a lot of work and effort to do.
Somewhat Healthier 'ChexMix' recipe
Healthy Smart Margarine--6 Tbsp (80 calories each) 480 calories 1 1/2tsp seasoned salt 3/4 tsp garlic powder 1/2 tsp onion powder 2 Tbsp Worchester sauce (22 calories) 6 cups Multigrain cherrios (1 cup =110 calories), so 660 cal 3 cups unsalted pretzels 20 = 110 calories..i'm guessing.500 cal 2 cups pecans ( 1 cup =822 calories , so 2= 1644 cal, ouch!) 1 cup walnuts ( 1 cup = 720 calories)
This actually comes out to about 12 cups at 1 cup for 330 calories . ouch x2. I only make one batch per year. The on line recipe is less calories but saltier and more carb rich.
Note: 1. there is no Chex cereal in this mix. I sometimes use Chex cereals or Crispix but for this batch I searched for a high fiber cereal that had lower calories per volume and Multigrain cherrios were it and were slightly sweet. I usually just make this, count up the calories, and then figure out what a serving would be per cup. 2. I make it healthier by using no salt pretzels, more nuts, less cereal. Nuts actually add more calories but have more nutrients and protein and are filling. The seasoning part is directly from a recipe off the net but this version is probably more actual calories than the original chex mix. I also use less margarine and less seasoning salt.
to make: Preheat oven to 250 degrees. Melt the margarine in microwave then add the seasonings and worchester. Mix all the cereals / pretzels /nuts in large bowl. Pour in the seasoning and stir Spread the mix out on cookie sheets. I put it on aluminum foil on the sheet. Bake for 1 hr, pulling it out every 15 minutes to stir it up a bit. The recipe says to let it cool on papertowels. I've never done this. This would be a good gift to give as a home made holiday recipe. NOM NOM
I'm a Geek for many things: Food, Pajamas, Coffee, Chocolate, Movies, Books, getting and being fit and healthy, 80's music, and the list goes on and on .....A nurse, a diabetic, I've lost over 130 lbs and have more to go . And I actually enjoy working out.
I chose the names of Ms. PJ Geek and PJ and Pounds because I have happy memories of childhood, coming in dirty and sweaty from playing in the yard. Then taking a bath, putting on a fresh nightgown and feeling all new again . I felt like a princess. Fresh renewal. .........
All names and situations will be changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, and so I can keep my job. While I am a nurse, I do not intend this to be a blog with specific directions or guidelines for healthcare. And.....though I have a college degree, that was a long time ago ya'll, and I don't remember proper punctuation or grammar.